I actually like Listening to my own music now

There is something to this, and it’s a lot to unpack.

You may think that if I created it, that I actually like listening to it but it’s not always the case. In the past, it’s never been the case honestly.

The Dark Side

Why is this even a thing worth talking about?

We get trapped on the comparison carousel a lot in life. We go around and around with the idea that we’re not worthy enough to do this, or that someone else is so much better than us at that. The fact is, we are all mediocre at everything. There are just some people who put in so much work that their mediocrity is greater than yours, and that’s ok.

The dark side of comparison is self doubt, depression, or even a lack of will and desire to even try.

I think maybe I was stuck in the lack of will and desire to try for so long based on past measurements of success.

Dependent Perspective

I had a friend once tell me that he was only better at drawing than I was because he practiced more than me. At the point in my life I was at, it didn’t make much sense. Honestly, I thought he was crazy. I thought that there is no way that I could ever be as good as him, but the lesson is less about being as great an artist and more about being consistent and just showing up.

No one can influence or inspire someone quite like you can. We have a unique gift that is only granted within your being, and no one else on this planet has the same experience of existence through your being.

New Surroundings

Sometimes changing up the environment in which you create makes a HUGE difference. Even better, working with people who will challenge your old ways of thinking is a better move.

The way that I’ve worked in the past wasn’t conducive to getting the best out of me, but it was more about getting the best that I could muster out the fastest.

Getting told “nah that’s not good enough” is a bruise to the ego, BUT that phrase can also fuel your desire to create greater things.

Working on new material

in progress…

Anthem Recording Studio

It’s been so long since I’ve been able to dedicate time and resources to working on new material.

On the one hand I’m excited, but there is still the nagging anxiety that comes with releasing new material. As an artist I know what it sounds like to me and in my own speakers, but I lack the superpower to sit with everyone and observe how they interpret the music.

I do wish that was actually a super power btw…