The new song is out in the world and the love that I’ve gotten is unbelievable.
I can honestly say that I never thought anything that I could put out could be recieved so well. That’s a character flaw that lives within me. Doubt.
In the above paragraph lies the exact reason why “Save Me From Myself” even exists. The mind is a powerful maze that we all get wrapped up in. The God of this maze tells us things that we either are or are not, and tells us what we feel and don’t feel. Worse yet, our mind paints projections about how we perceive people to see us.
Your mindset can be dangerous
Bad mindset habits can be dangerous. It can be life altering, or even ending. Like the story of a man who, based on a Doctors incorrect prognosis essentially willed himself dead. This was taken from a book called “The Expectation Effect” by David Robson.
Let’s travel back to Nashville, Tennessee, in the 1970s. A man was diagnosed with terminal esophageal cancer. This came as a shock, especially since the cancer was so widespread that his doctor doubted that he would live to see next Christmas. Well, the man did live to see Christmas, but he died just a few weeks later, in January. Tragically, it seemed, the cancer had won. But when an autopsy was performed, the pathologist made a shocking discovery. There was no tumor on his esophagus. There was a tumor on his liver, but it was small, and certainly not terminal. But then, if that was the case, what caused the man’s actual death? With his dire diagnosis in mind, there was only one conclusion to be drawn: it was the doctor’s prognosis that had killed him. He had expected to die around Christmas of that year, and so he did.
Growth and reframing my thinking
In getting this song out into the ether, it has helped me to build an understanding of what’s going on in my mind. It’s also been therapeutic in helping others to see what’s going on in my mind too.
Micheal Scott, from the show The Office, always asks Toby, “why are you the way you are?” It’s hilarious, but it’s also the question that, in my mind, people always ask after having an encounter with me.
The likely story is no one cares. Often times, people only remember one of two things:
Did this person make me feel good?
Did this person make me feel bad?
Removing these barriers to my anxiety, well working on it at least, puts me at ease. I try to just move from existing moment to moment and being present in where I am right now.
I think everything else will take care of itself.